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It's the dead of night.
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I don't know what I want to be when I grow up...
I have no idea. I'm scared. I'm turning 16 this year and I'm going to have to drive soon.
I've been having doubts about my faith too.
I've never felt this far from God.
It's not that I know I'm going to fail in anything... It's only because I have too many dreams for the future.
I feel like I'm in a huge maze and I lost the map I was given.
My old dream of becoming a pianist is just crumbling away. I know at this point I haven't done what it takes to get there.
I've been slacking off for two years and I don't know how to get back to where I should be.
I've realized how narcissistic I am as well.
I'm trying to change slowly, but it feels like my wastefulness of precious time has cost me.
Except for my grades and academics...
I'm sinking.
I have no idea. I'm scared. I'm turning 16 this year and I'm going to have to drive soon.
I've been having doubts about my faith too.
I've never felt this far from God.
It's not that I know I'm going to fail in anything... It's only because I have too many dreams for the future.
I feel like I'm in a huge maze and I lost the map I was given.
My old dream of becoming a pianist is just crumbling away. I know at this point I haven't done what it takes to get there.
I've been slacking off for two years and I don't know how to get back to where I should be.
I've realized how narcissistic I am as well.
I'm trying to change slowly, but it feels like my wastefulness of precious time has cost me.
Except for my grades and academics...
I'm sinking.
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Finals week
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Today I took my AP World History and AP Biology finals.
I hope that over winter break I will have lots of time to draw.
I hope that over winter break I will have lots of time to draw.
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OA O
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I think I need to get better at drawing first... oA o;; lol
I'll wait just a few months. ^_^
Also... I'm super behind on my AP assignments and piano practice... I think I need to focus on those before this. even though this is very important to me.
I'll still be active, but I'm going to wait longer before doing commissions
I'm not experienced enough with both my art and the real working world oA o I think I got ahead of myself =A =
I'm really super behind on my homework though.
I'll need to work hours a day to catch up OA O
and same for piano...
Bad time management at its finest =A =;;
I'll wait just a few months. ^_^
Also... I'm super behind on my AP assignments and piano practice... I think I need to focus on those before this. even though this is very important to me.
I'll still be active, but I'm going to wait longer before doing commissions
I'm not experienced enough with both my art and the real working world oA o I think I got ahead of myself =A =
I'm really super behind on my homework though.
I'll need to work hours a day to catch up OA O
and same for piano...
Bad time management at its finest =A =;;
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hm
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I want to become a full fledged artist on Deviantart one day ^_^
I'm not sure how though, except to keep drawing...
And my dad always says I don't use my talent to make money so that makes me sad.
because I don't know how
I don't know anything!
How am I going to live through college and adulthood!?
I feel so unexperienced....
I'm not sure how though, except to keep drawing...
And my dad always says I don't use my talent to make money so that makes me sad.
because I don't know how I don't know anything!
How am I going to live through college and adulthood!?
I feel so unexperienced....
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